((: God, i am trying..

yesterday service was awesome! and the pizza party too!!! ((: the pizza is super nice! ((:

Today, was a great new start for me. I went to school early in the morning... i don't really feel like studying or moving.. i went home after school! i go msn, fbooking, blog, youtube... i feel so lost.. terrible, hopeless, helpless, useless.. the past week can say its my life hardest time... i tried my best to seek, pray, ask, but i just can't overcome that feeling..

I don't mind banging my head on the wall now... i feel so hopeless... God, i am trying my best.. really trying...

I seek because i love you. I asked because i want you. I pray because i knew you will reply. But God, will you once again reply me...